Migraines. They suck. I'm having them. But having them frequently made me realize I didn't get sick from drinking and puke on someone's feet. I got sick from a migraine and puked on someone's feet. And I feel good about that.
Cancer. Saying "no evidence of disease" sounds like good news. Until you write it this way "we have no idea what's going on here". And that's stressful.
Friends. I have a friend who did Kona last week (I have a lot of friends who did Kona last week). He crossed the line and the first thing I thought was "he's that guy". You know, the one who sprints by the person in the chute even though he finished in 13:xx. He claimed he couldn't help it. He just felt so energized. I believe him.
Inspiration. I needed some. And I don't find IM athletes inspirational. Well, not most. Even the pros really. I just don't. Don't hate me. But there's nothing inspirational about someone going out and training and then racing. No matter how much they train. No matter how much they sacrifice. And that's been a HUGE struggle for me this year. I have a calling to do something. And triathlon takes away from that. But at the same time I enjoy it and need to exercise. So I was lucky enough to meet someone last week that completely blew me away. And I jumped at the chance to help him help others. And it's sports related. So that's charging me right now.
Inspiration II. And then the next day I talked with someone on the phone for 20 minutes. Another random meeting. In the end she sent me a link to a book she wrote. About going from being homeless to graduating Harvard. Uhm. I immediately texted a friend of mine and said "I'm not worthy". And I resisted emailing her back to say "I remember the TV documentary about you"
iPhone 4s. Is awesome. I'm so happy I can take a group picture without taking 30 snaps of 1/2 of someone's head. And Siri cracks me up. My friends indulged my talking about her for 4 hours on Saturday. The tried to play with her. One of them called her a bitch. And she came back with some snap.
Took this picture on first try. Nice having the front facing camera!
Training. I've started running again. 12 pounds more than I was at IMLou. The heaviest I've been since 2007. Running doesn't feel normal. And I suck at it. I've learned I lose fitness a LOT faster than most people do. And I don't have that 'base' that everyone else has from years of running. Or maybe I do, and it's just slow because I always ran slow for so long. But I started running again. I ran a 5K trail run. Or run/walked it. Yeah. That's how out of shape I am. But the hills were big and rocky. And because I like blogs with pictures.
They were moving faster than I was after the trail run. Maybe during the trail run too!
14 comments:
sorry about the migraines and no answers about the cancer :( but glad to hear that you are getting back on the horse... im sure those lbs will melt like butter tooo... its the off season still remember??
Migraines are the worst (what I dealt with all last year). I hope they are getting all better and am so excited to hear about what is inspiring you now. There should always be a deeper meaning to sport and so glad to hear you are finding yours. Keep up the training and running, your fitness will be back :)
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My hubbs has dealt with migranes for years and is now taking beta blockers (only prob with that for you is that you have a hard time getting your HR up on them)
So happy for you that you have found something else to "charge" you right now. Yeah - it's important to stay active and healthy, but try to always do what's right for YOU in the moment.
Love the ducks!
SO sorry about the migraines - I hope you are able to find the trigger!
Glad you are finding inspiration somewhere - it comes from all sorts of places but it's good to just find it and keep ourselves moving forward towards our goals :)
You definitely have a lot going on right now. You are not alone in triathletes don't inspire you. Having someone train, and run a race isn't inspiring to a lot of people.
I have friends who have disabilities, and the last thing they care about is races, and that crap. They'd probably like to live pain free, but they still are good caring people.
Wish you the best. :) Fricken migraines. I have had like 10 headaches my whole life. I am lucky as far as that is concerned.
migraines and cancer are big whore bags. bitches. hate em both.
i watched the homeless to harvard lifetime movie! that is inspirational!
There is nothing inspiration about pros.
I do find inspiration with the mid night finishers
I am sorry about your migranes. Those are no fun at all and I hope they can get you something to make them go away!
Inspiration is different for each person. Take it from where you get it and enjoy it. Good luck with your new endeavor!
a big ugh to migraines, you poor thing.
love the pictures!
Argh, sorry about the migraines. I've been getting some gnarly headaches, but they don't fall into the migraine category. Yours must truly suck!
I'm with ya on not being inspired by triathletes or really athletics in general. Maybe because we've both already done it and realized it's pretty easy as long as you sacrifice time and energy to get there.
Good luck with the inspiration! Would love to hear about whats got you all fired up!
:) And your mom's non-cancer sucks and for that I am sorry!!
I used to get migraines all of the time! They suck! I hope you find out what's causing them and they stop soon!
I'm inspired by chicks that can do pull-ups right now. You can do pull-ups right? weren't you like super hard-core military? anyway, I'm not offended that you aren't inspired by pros. I'm not either :) feel better soon! hugs
i don't find inspiration from the pros either, well except my husband. But i am bias. Praying for you mom. I hope they can find something so that they can cure it fast! Thinking of you Maggs!
Cancer sucks, not knowing sucks, and having a little kid so aware of what's happening ask you if she's 'going to make it' sucks the most. There's no rhyme or reason to any of it so I guess the best we can do is hold our breath and be hopeful. I can't WAIT to get the iPhone, too bad I don't get an upgrade until March!
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